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dan hicks and me

Jesus fucking Christ.

This hurts me the most of all the recent deaths. I've told my Dan Hicks stories a million times ... I'll make it a million and one, and then I'll be done.

The night before our wedding (May 25, 1973), I was nervously watching TV when Dan Hicks and His Hot Licks came on. I had seen them live once, in the summer of 1970. He sang his great song, "I Scare Myself", and I realized he was telling my story. So at the wedding the next day, I read the lyrics to that song as my "statement".

A few years later we went to see Dan at a converted movie theater in Rodeo. I saw him sitting in the seats before the show, and went up to him and told him my story about the wedding, asking if perhaps he might play "I Scare Myself" that night. He was very drunk, and mostly laughed at my story ... not at me, mind you, just the story.

He took the stage ... I can't remember if there was a bass player, but Naomi Ruth Eisenberg was with him. Robin and the friends we were with worked for Naomi Ruth's brother at a fabric store. Dan got through one song, maybe two, broke strings, talked to himself as he restrung his guitar. We walked up to the stage and asked Naomi to autograph a poster from the show. Dan said something like "I'm up here suffering and people are getting Naomi's autograph." He left the stage soon afterwards.

He was a real person.

I scare myself
just thinking about you
I scare myself
when I'm without you
I scare myself
the moments that you're gone
I scare myself
when I let my thoughts run

and when they're runnin'
I keep thinking of you
and when they're runnin'
what can I do?

I scare myself
and I don't mean lightly
I scare myself
it can get frightenin'
I scare myself
to think what I could do
I scare myself
it's some kinda voodoo

and with that voodoo
I keep thinking of you
and with that voodoo
what can I do?

but it's oh so, so, so different
when we're together
and I'm oh so so much calmer, I feel better
for the stars have crossed our paths forever
and the sooner that you realize it, the better

then I'll be with you
and I won't scare myself
and I'll know what to do
and I won't scare myself
and then I'll think of you
and I won't scare myself
and then my thoughts'll run
and I won't scare myself

 

 

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